Will I Ever Sleep Again?

This is my sweet Lady Bug at a couple of weeks old sitting in my most prized baby holder, the swing.


Isn’t she cute?  It took exactly the same amount of time that it took my camera’s flash to go off for her to start screaming in that thing.  Day or night. Awake or sound asleep.  That swing did nothing to help her sleep.

This is baby number 5! I really thought I knew the game plan when it came to babies.  Baby is born. Baby is kind of hard for the few week or so, but then magic happens and baby starts sleeping in the swing or the play pen. WRONG.

 Lady Bug came out of my womb knowing exactly where she wanted to be and it’s in momma’s arms.

I have always shared my room with my babies.  Some were in the room longer than others but they all started out close to my bed.  Queen Sas was in my bed from age 1 to about age 6!  She was a different story though because of her terrible night terrors.  I thought I learned a lesson after her, however.  First, don’t do the “ten minute rule,” which is a nasty program that allows baby to CIO for ten minutes.  Second, don’t ever let them get in your bed!

Of course, those rules changed with my Wee Man.  After his hospitalization with RSV at 9 months old, severe reflux, and asthma Big Daddy and I were always sleeping with him.  He was so sick that we spent a lot of nights on the couch with him.  Note the on the couch part.  Not in the bed!

So, I thought I knew the road I was about to travel down.  Apparently not.  Lady Bug came in to this world peacefully.  After her birth Big Daddy held her and visited with grandparents while I napped, and that was the last bit of uninterrupted sleep I got!  She was colicky for the first 2 months. from 7pm to 4 am she cried.  This happened every night.  I slept on the couch with her during that stressful time period.  When the colic passed I was still on the couch with her because she wouldn’t let me put her down.  She didn’t let me put her down EVER!  Day and night she was in my arms, a sling, or a carrier. 

Everything changed one night when we went to sleep on the couch and I was ripped from my slumber by her screams coming from the floor!  My ming was racing as I jumped up and grabbed her.  She looked fine, and her screams lasted about a minute before she was nursing contentedly.  I woke up Big Daddy.  I was seriously panicking, and I was pretty sure that she was hurt.  She was fine.  But I knew that sleeping on the couch was not safe and this proved it.

So what am I doing now?  Bed sharing.  We side-carred her crib to our bed so we wouldn’t have to worry about her falling out, and to allow extra room since Wee Man ends up in our bed every night now.  I spend my nights waking every hour or so with Lady Bug.  She doesn’t wake up completely, mind you.  We usually switch sides and she latches to the other boob and we drift back in to dream land.  It is not so bad.  I know she is safe in my arms. She obviously knows she is safe in my arms since she has never slept a night not in them. 


I am just so tired.  Even a partial waking every hour or so seems to be enough to drain me.  Oh well, at least I am not having to get up and mix formula.


2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Joy
    Jul 15, 2011 @ 17:19:58

    Your 5th sound a lot like my 2nd. My oldest son LOVED the swing. In fact, looking back he was such an easy baby. My 2nd has cried for the first two months of life and we suspect it was colic but who knows. Now he only wants to be put to bed while in our arms. And he is getting heavy!! I do enjoy the closeness with him but am not sure I can keep this up. Lol.
    Ps-Since you already have 5 kids you must have a wealth of knowledge, but I wanted to pass on this Mom’s Guide to Caring for Little Teeth (http://www.1dental.com/moms-guide/). I’ve read tooth decay is the most common illness among children and this site has given me practical tips to keep my 4 year old and my new infant healthy. Hope it’s helpful to you or someone you know.


    • totallyattachedmomma
      Jul 16, 2011 @ 13:46:29

      Thank you for your reply. I must say that having let go of my expectations for my baby’s sleep needs has allowed me to enjoy her much more at night. I really thought that she would be like all of the other, but in reality she is an individual and deserves to be treated as such. I too enjoy the time I get to spend with her. Many nights I look at her sweet face and wonder how I ever slept with out my infants next to me. As for dental care my secret is breastfeeding. the act of nursing helps a baby’s dentition. It also helps his or her jaw alignment.


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